Day Dreamer. Life as it is.

Caramel Macchiato anyone???

To grasp what I am about to say and not think I am totally bonkers, you need to first understand: I have not have a day off in, oh I don’t know, 2 months maybe? I mean, not a single day off. Not even on the weekends. Physically, emotionally, and especially, spiritually, I feel as though I’ve been wrung dry.haha.

So as I sit here listenin' to the pourin' rain....haha,fine...It is raining at the moment but I am also listening to this song called Day dreamer by Adele. She's a brit soul singer with very husky voice. Meanwhile, I am doing nothing but sipping my well brewed coffee. With its unique, delicious taste I was flooded with feelings of goodness (I know that sounds melodramatic, but it’s true). I suddenly remembered so vividly how this simple ritual of coffee, music, and the pourin' rain, something that I used to do daily, could somehow restore me in a single moment—no, transport me (as rituals are supposed to do) to a place in my self, in my life, in my history, associated with a pleasant sort of restful joy and reassurance.

It reminds me of how everything were before, my worry free days years back. The last thing I remembered was NADA. Things happens really fast. As cookie would say, Time flies like an arrow...Fruit flies like Bananas. The banana part, figure it out yourself cos' Im pretty lost myself too. Its just funny how the older you get, the more you realize how Life really is. It does not promise happiness everyday. In fact, God himself never promise days without rain. In fact, how do you wanna have rainbows if you don't tolerate the rain,right? One thing's for sure tho, we all learn in the end that You are in this world to experience being you. To explore and give the world your Best in order to receive the Best from the world. Its all about giving and taking. Its like Fashion, as Heidi Klum says it, One day you're in, one day you're out. It all depends on how you look at it as well. When life throws lemon at you, make Lemonade. I love that quote. haha. It really means alot to me, and for you too. I'm sure.

Just remember, everytime you're feelin' so low, like there is no tomorrow, (hey,that totally rhymed!)...Just look back at all the sweet memories you've shared with your loved ones. Your mum, your family...even if its a best friend, someone you would call a brother from another mother...it doesnt matter. Happiness comes in different shapes and sizes, different colours, different personalities. And trust me, in every human stories, regardless any kinds of relationships, there will be the hard times as well. I mean, who says that it will all be a perfect relationship right. But NEVER judge, NEVER assume, NEVER back stab the people you really care for. Speaking from experiences, being back stabbed does hurt alot. Some might not show you how they're really feelin' inside...some might just go with the flow and act like nothing happen and still can smile and laugh with you. Then there are also the ones that will forgive you...and would be best if they forget you. It's not that they hate you, its just that, sometimes when you're constantly hurt by the same group of people, with the same old 'stories', you get tired of it. Enough is enough. What's even sadder is that, what you say/assume also affect the people around those you say such stuffs about. In a long run, it does affect their relationships. It does not make things easier for them either...No one want such dramas in their life. Everyone craves for happiness. It really aint easy but we should never let go of those we love and care for. No matter what happens, its ok to bend, but don't break.

Hey, its really gonna be ok. Everything will... Just like how they always tell me same thing over and over again.


And I trust them. :]


P/s- I'm beggin' you and you and you...I'm pretty sure you know who you are,no? Just leave us alone. Pls stop talkin' shit about us. Common now, YOU know whatever you say aint true. You know whatever you assumed aint right. And you know whatever you say to anyone of us wont change our perceptions on each other. Stop tryin' to break us apart or whatever you're tryin to do. Really. You have no clue how much trust we have in each other and you had NO idea what we've been through because of you and what you said.You should know by now that I am very protective over them. So,watch it yo...or else. Then again, thanks for bringing us closer. Appreciate it much. You're right. I aint givin' up on anyone of us. HELLLLLLLLLLLLL no!!!!!

Dude! Start havin' faith in your own friends too man. Like NOW. Seriously. You need help.


Lord, have mercy.