To feel or not to feel. That is the question.

Had a Graduating-Batch photoshoot today.

Amazingly, for the 1st time I am less worried about how my pics would turn out.


There are certain things I am more concern of right now.


Like how am I gonna cope with my everyday life by not seeing the people I see EVERYDAY at campus. Especially the ones Im closest with, after this.


Namely my bestfriend, my brother and sister from another mother, my sexie ladies, my really good friends around me.


It hit me yesterday when I realized that all this will come to an end soon.


No more morning coffee at Kaya and toast with Nata? No more lunch at uncle's shop with my bestfriend and the gang? No more fooling around while watching You Tube with mr.bunny? No more fooling around and whinning around with all of the people I am so attached to?



No more This and That.



I know I am supposed to be happy and excited that I will be graduating soon. In like 2months yo.


So why am I feeling so the opposite.



















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Was having dinner at Benteng with Eric, Booney and Angel last night. Was telling them about the photoshoot.



We all agreed that time flies. In few months time I will be graduating.



And both me and eric misses our routine from last sem so fucking much. Especially the BnB part.



It makes me wanna cry. huhu.



It hit me so hard last night when eric told me that he will be going back to Miri in like a month to come which is totally NEXT MONTH. I am sooooooo happy and excited for him cos I am so sure that he misses his family and friends in Miri so fucking much. I would too.



Yet at the same time, why is it so fucking painful to think about not being able to hang out and see him and the rest of the gang for the rest of the months, and probably year(s)???


This is so fucked up.


But you know what? I will enjoy the moments I have with them right now to the bits.



I fucking will.