Confessions of a Teenage Drama King...

Ahoy July.

2010-07-04T09:40:00.000-07:00

my days without you are so dark,

so long, so gray,

my days without you are so absurd,

so bitter, so tough,

my days without you,

my days without you don't have nights,

if someone appears,

it's useless to sleep,

my days without you are an excess,

the hours don't have a beginning, or end

so short of air,

so filled with nothing,

useless junk,

trash on the floor,

flies in the house

my days without you are like a sky,

without silvery moons,

nor traces of the sun,

my days without you are only an echo,

that always repeats,

the same song

Time.

2010-05-02T01:52:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since i last updated my blog. Well, blardy lazy to be honest. Plus with assignments and all, there was no time to update. Besides, somehow when you have a couple of friends to talk your heart out, blogging seems a little bit unnecessary.

I just cant wait for July. We'll see.

Claps

2010-02-24T06:35:00.000-08:00

I may not be a born surfer, or anything close to surfer dude material...but I do have interest in having a custom made surf board. WITH MARILYN MONROE ON IT!

I swear that would be hot. I designed one(above) and showed it to Bunny and he said it is possible and he will definitely help me with designing it one day. Well, it is for my future chill out corner kind of cafe. :) Sweeeeeeeeet~ I'm planning to call it Claps. Or maybe Claps by Dex Rose. See? Sounds awesome,no? You have to agree with me. And no copyrights please. I'm so gonna sue anyone who steals the name. Mind you, I have my ways. :)

Thoughts

2010-02-22T06:58:00.000-08:00

Calling others ugly does not make you any prettier or handsomer. Calling others fat will not make you any skinnier or fitter as well. When you discriminate and say someone is gay and such, it does not make you any manlier or macho-er in any sense as well. Bottom line is, it does not matter what people says about you. As long as you stay true to yourself, you will go far.

I mean, no ones perfect right? So chill. God is great. :)

monte

2010-02-18T21:34:00.000-08:00


"I make a wish on a star at night
the brightest star that's in the sky
Only to have realized
that it was just a satellite" 


My dream - My dream is to have a perfect day.
 A perfect day spent with people whom I love, and who love me back.
Sometimes, when you are just about to feel happy...
Reality comes knockin' on your door, pulling you back to earth. 
Perhaps all it wants you to realize is that life is indeed a yoyo. 
Like full of ups and downs. Thus, this is just another 
episode of 'the life-cycle'. Nothing new i guess.
 We must always look forward to happiness. :)

Seasons change

2010-02-11T21:38:00.000-08:00

To cut or not to cut...that is the Question.

Seriously sometimes I just wish that hair grows as how we want it to be. I feel like chopping my hair off and at the same time I know that if i did, Ill regret it to the max. I somehow miss my mohawk days. Then again, in the other hand I love my rugged,-i-dont-care-what-you-think-about-me look at the moment. You get what I mean?

During my mohawk days, I was undeniably 'skinnier'. Im currently as fat as fuck. Pardon me, but I am certainly out of shape. I love to procrastinate. I can be so enthusiastic at first about losing em' weight but can instantly be distracted the next. Oh lord, help me. I want a hollywood personal trainer. Or maybe I should join the next Biggest Loser Asia. I believe I might win. :)

Going down memory lane certainly brings back memories about me and my sort of achievement in hairstyles. I used to be very daring in changing and trying new things. I dont usually follow trends. I tend to be myself most of the time. In individuality at least. I am also too lazy to upload pics of myself with different hairstyles at the moment. I really like my hair long cos' I think its so awesome. Well, besides the fact that I often been told that I look like a girl. It really is annoying but I dont think Im under the pretty boy category cos I'm very unappealing most of the time.haha.

I have proof.

See????!

But ofcourse Bunny and Eric are appealing. I'm the less appealing one.

And at the end of the day, beyond the abnormality, we are all pretty normal after all. :)

Absolut everything?

2010-02-07T03:00:00.000-08:00

Nothing says Saturday evening like driving all the way up to Serian and spending time with your grandma. The sun sets beautifully and the sky looks like a blanket of blue ocean. Yes, I have been reading lately. Hence, the flowery sentences. Anyways, Eric and I drove up to Serian yesterday with my mum and my lil nephew. We went to Ranchan and around town snappin' pics for our Design Practise assignment. God knows what it requires. Yen, if you're reading this...trust me, we both went lost thinking about the assignment and what it actually want from us.

In the end, both of us ended up lookin' around at funny t-shirts with bad typos and grammar mistakes. T-shirts made in China mostly. Damn, don't they have any english tutors or something over there. Hmm, but the cherry on top of the icing of the day is when I found this awesome sling beg with the Brit's flag printed on it in some supermarket where everyone in Serian goes to shop at. It's like their Spring or Mid Valley. I fell in love with the beg as soon as i lay my eyes on it. This is truly love at first side. Mind you, I usually dont believe in love at first side. But this is a different case. One can never say no to a cheap yet so awesome beg. I got it for less than 20bucks. RM18.50 to be exact. :) I am so proud of my ability to shop like a smart buyer. No,really I am. haha.

It almost look like the beg above. Like 97% accurate. Just that instead of the white features, it is black. And my beg is slightly smaller too. Well guys, dont hate me cos you aint me!

And after dinner with the family, both of us went straight back to Kuching. Speeding on Kuching-Serian's highway is awesome. Its like what you see on video games, just better. If you know what I mean.

Anyways, I would like to also wish my heartiest condolences to mr.Bunny's late dreadlocks. Yes, today was its last day of 'dreadlocking'. It has left us nothing but with great memories. May it rest in peace, amen.

Memoirs of Dreadlocks.

Thanks for reading folks. Now, shooooh! :)

Fortune Cookie.

2010-02-04T06:41:00.000-08:00

I noticed that day by day, the world is getting even more angrier and crueler. Whatever happens to Love or care, or Peace...? It is a very sad thing coming to think about it. Well, although most of us would prefer to choose violence to 'make things right', I would still stick to my point of view that violence does not solve anything. Love, in the other hand, is everlasting. Call me lame, or gay or whatever. I dont give a damn. All I know is, love leads us to happiness. To a better future, of course. :)

I also noticed that people uses the word Hate more often nowadays, compared to Love. Yes,I too use it most of the time. But mind you, I use the word Love even more. Like when I talk about my mum, or describe how good coffee is for you...or how the smell of fresh laundry makes me feel. This little little things if you know what I mean. Love is not just a four letter word, it is also the one word the world evolves around. People or legends like Mahatma Gandhi, Mother Theresa, Princess Di and Nelson Mandela are good examples of those who believes in the power of love. Why? Simply cos they speak the language of Love better that anybody else.

Love is when you feel at peace. When you feel warm inside. Or when you dont have to try so hard to fit in the circle of people who you hang out with. Love is friendship. Love is when someone accepts you for who you are without caring what people might think or say about you. Instead, they back you up and know that all the rumours spread about you aint' true. Well, love....is not perfection. Instead, it is a summary of our flaws and imperfections. God did not make anyone perfect. He wants us to love and accept one another as it is. We are after all in this world to experience being ourselves.

Love, after all comes in different shapes and sizes. Saying I love you is just the beginning to something even bigger than life. And ourselves. :)

i.Like.

2010-01-26T04:41:00.001-08:00

I. AM. A. BIG. FAN. OF CRAZY-ASS-AWESOME. T-SHIRTS.

I.WANT.MORE.T-SHIRTS.LIKE.THIS.

Take the risk. Feel the rush.

2010-01-18T19:05:00.000-08:00

Wow, I cant believe classes are starting next week. That's like few days away. Excited? nah..... Just a lil' bit nervous thinking abt our damn results. Butterflies in my stomach man, shitnesssss. I dont like to wait. Especially when waiting makes you feel more nervous.

Anyways, dinner was great last night. We finally had something indian for dinner. haha. Mum made chicken kurma, dhal, and we ordered capati's from Bombay spices. We also insisted on Bunny to come. My mum prepared the chicken kurma especially for em' and he said it tasted good. Yup, he's like family. I mean, he is part of us all. After dinner, Bunny and I watched Blue crush. A movie about surfer chicks. Now, when you put chicks with surf boards, what do you get? Hotness dude, HOTNESS. We enjoyed the movie especially brotha bunny whose totally into surfing. He came back from Cherating with a surfboard. It is so awesome dammit. I may not be into surfing but I am excited to see him surf. Trust me, the movie made me realized that surfing aint easy. You need stamina and loads of courage and good balancing. Without all this, you will never be a good surfer. Now I sound like Bunny.

I am currently having quality time with my grandma. Most of the time we spend time talking, eating out and me sending her to run her errands and sending her for massages. I love my grams. You should too. :]

Family matters

2010-01-14T01:49:00.000-08:00

It has been such a wet week. It rains everyday and it makes surfing the net extremely hard. I swear it takes ages to connect to Safari. haha. Yes, say hello to Safari. I have been meaning to post up a pic of the new addition to the family, my baby cousin. My aunt just gave birth to a baby boy, few days ago. This kiddo is not even a week old. :]

In fact, the other night when my mum and I went to the hospital to visit my aunt who was discharged yesterday, they were already discussing names. My mum and my aunties, one of them currently in Kelang made a few choices. They thought of naming him either Sameer or Shamir. Well, I almost laugh my ass off when I heard the name Shamir. I know eric would. haha, inside jokes ok folks. And bunny's niece's name is Sharmin. It reminded me of these little little things as well. haha. Picking names is fun. For as long as i can remember, my name was also chosen by my fellow aunties and uncles - my mum's siblings. I totally love my name i guess. At least its not Drake or Josh....or something else that is not pronounceable. I am very thankful indeed that my name is not some Iban inspired name. No offence. I am an Iban too. Well, I am under that category. Dont get me wrong tho, I am proud of my own roots. Without them, I'm nothing.

Anyways, I have this new obsession. Its a very healthy obsession mind you. I love oldies. I love old fashion. People, I like old classic cars. I love the 50s, 60s, 70s era. The music is like a mantra to my soul. It heals, its very enhancing and its very pleasant to the ears. I have plan to get myself a classic ride one day. Trust me, dreams do come true. I recently watched this 2009 movie called The boat that rocked and the movie's setting takes you all the way back to the 60s era, which is awesome. Guys, if you are a music lover just like me, you are ought to watch it. Highly recommended I must say!

I have also decided to get more tats tattoed on my less appealing body when I finally have the money to do so. Wait till Eric's ass is back here and Bunny gets some free time to spear. I need you opinions on stuff guys.

Meanwhile, my ass is totally glued to the stool as my ears get frequent orgasms listening to Oldies. Life is awesome. This is me, signing off for today. Have a nice day y'all. :]

2 thousand and 10

2010-01-01T00:46:00.000-08:00

Some people hate, some people love. Some people are procrastinators, some people act now. Some people love to point fingers, some people love extend their hands. Some people question every answer, some people have an answer to every question. Some people hate to lose an argument. Some people love to win hearts. Some people want a change. Some people want to be the change.

This new year, its not about who is perfect and who is not. Because at the end of the day, we must all learn to see the perfections in every imperfections. :]

Ive been meaning to post this up but I've always been distracted, so there you go.

Merde happens?

2009-12-28T18:22:00.000-08:00

I've always known that God is great. he had a plan and I conclude that every person, big or small, Brown or White, short or tall, is a part of God's great tapestry. Nothing is coincidental in life, I guess.

2009 is comin' to an end. Hello 2010. I wonder so much what it has installed for me. I am not gonna hope for the best, cos' Life is not only about the best but little little things that forms the best and the worst. Embrace the good, and learn from the bad. :]

p/s- Man...I miss my buddy so much, my partner in crimes. Dude,COME BACK SOON!

Another P/s- I think I'm pretty sick cos I dont mind mouth ulcers at all. Pain is pleasure I guess. See? I am sick! haha

Shit happens

2009-12-19T23:38:00.000-08:00

I finally got the time to clean up my horribly dusty and 'hairy' room today. Well, hairy here means that my room is filled with hair-falls. I wonder wether there is such word. Anyways, I went to MPH yesterday after thinkin' to myself that I need a good book to read during this holiday, or else I might end up gettin' bored every single day and bothering others and such. There is this particular book I have been eying too, from MPH, so yesterday I finally got it.

It is an interesting book called - "Merde Happens" by Stephen Clarke. Merde means shit in French. The whole book is actually in French but was translated to English. It's about Paul West, an english man who is in deep financial merde and has taken on a decidely dodgy job touring America in a Mini. Yeah, the mini austins. I love em'. I want a mini too.

So anyway...The french woman - Alexa, his tres Parisienne girlfriend, claims to despise everything American, but ends up getting a little too friendly with the locals for Paul's liking.The American Jake is a poet whose main aim in life is to sleep with a woman from every country in the world. Preferably in the back of Paul's mini...and the story goes. Sounds interesting right? I am not even half through though. I've been feelin' so restless today. Maybe tired from cleanin' earlier today.

Anyways, Ill be goin' up to my grams in Serian tomorrow and my oh my Xmas is just around the corner. Yay, somethin' to look forward too ey. :]

Remember remember the 10th of December

2009-12-17T05:24:00.000-08:00

I was drivin' around one night when I realized that I have not post up the pics from my bday. The whole bday thing was not planned. We were all busy with finals, practicals and what not. Therefore I myself did not really bother about celebrating or what so ever. I remembered it was on a Thursday night, Eric and I were workin' our asses off tryin' to finish our assignments when Mr.Bunny called me up. In fact the whole day I was waitin' for him to wish me. I thought he totally forgot it was my bday, but I was cool with it cos' I know he's busy with work and all. Lil' did I know that he actually planned 2days before my bday, to get me a gift with Angel, and bring me out for dinner. Damn those assignments I had to say that I can't go out for dinner cos the friggin' essay was due the next day and I had to finish it by that night! Mr.Bunny said its ok and he will call me if anything. I felt so bad and annoyed with the fact that i could not even go out and celebrate on my birthday and God it felt like the worst bday of my life.

Mr.Bunny texted around 8.30pm later that night, and he told me that he was on his way with Angel. Im like wtf, but I knew earlier on that knowin' Bunny, he would surely try to cheer me up. Plus, it was my bday. So yea. Angel and Bunny came with KFC. It aww-ed me and I was so touched. It felt so good. They got me snack plate and ice cream, and also a nice T-shirt. I love those two. I love the shirt. So much!

In campus the next day, Yen and Gerald gave me a clock for my bday. Its really cute I love it you two. I hope you're readin' this. :] And Eric chia-ed me a nice chicken burger. Got it around 3.30am around Water front. I love road side burgers! See, little2 things like this always matters to me.

And yesterday Sacha and her mum gave me some cookies. A xmas gift they say. It tastes as good as Famous Amos'. Just better. :]

Scars remind me Of just how far that I've come. Ain't it just the way life goes? People fear what they don't know. Come along for the ride. And who knows what you might find. :]

Reunions

2009-12-15T22:50:00.000-08:00

Life has been smooth lately - Especially after submissions and finals dammit! It feels so good to be free. Anyways, just a lil' update. Last Monday night the guys : Eric, Gerald, Remy, Dominic and I had a lil' guys night out reunion at our official sponsor for guys night outs' - Jalan Song. After a few sems FINALLY another reunion. Thank God. Bunny could not make it though, cos' he was busy with his work.

There are tonnes of pics to show here but Ill just post up the best aite.

We were so happy we could cry! hahah :)

Friends for life yea?!

Last night was awesome. Bunny and I crashed over at his office/work place. Apparently last 2nights he had to become the unofficial security guard for his office due to some circumstances. Last night I joined him. It was fun. It felt like we own the building. While he does his work, I went around snappin' pics. I mean, when can this happen again right? This sort of random things happens once in a blue moon dude. Anyways, I also brought 2bottles of Tsingtao and some yummy pork pau. Cos ada org mengidam. :) Anyways, we slept at the conference room and it was freazin' dammit.

It was not as scary as how I thought it would be. It was rather peaceful although the fact is, someone committed suicide in that very building once upon a time. Seriously dude. I aint' kidin. Ask Bunny!

You know what's funny? Well, I learnt that ugly things happens all the time before amazing things happens. You fight, you quarrel, you give each other silent treatments sometimes but bottom line is - Bonds like this never breaks no matter what happens. It just gets stronger. :) It rocks to have an amazing brother from another mother.

It is almost like aba-cadabra, just better. :]

P/s- Sexie ladies, its our turn next! :)

Cloud 9

2009-12-04T09:18:00.000-08:00

Countdowns

6days to duedates

20days to Christmas

5days to being a year older

26days to a new year.

Meanwhile, embrace your December.

This is mine. :]

I am me once more'

2009-12-02T10:09:00.000-08:00

Good Lord, I am finally done with my friggin' 2k words essay. Oh the joy. I love the feeling of completing a task. The surreality feels like orgasm. Sort of, if you know what I mean. This also means that I have two more assignments to go. A website, and an ad campaign. This is the part where you insert cheering an a voice tellin' you, "YOU CAN FUCKIN' DO IT DUDE!!!". And yes I can. :] Anyways, big brother bunny texted earlier today. He wants, and is planning to go to KL March next year and he asked me whether I wanna tag along. Being the clingy me ofcourse I'd say yes. But by just saying yes doesn't mean that you can go. Sometimes there's more to that than just saying yes. We'll see how things goes. In case I cant make it, he said there's always a next time. Which is true.

Just out of your curiosity, I know I've been bloggin' kinda frequent nowadays ey? I guess it's just a good way to spill out thoughts and feelings somehow.

On the other hand, I am still excited for Xmas to come.

And have i ever mention that I am addicted to God's greatest creation - Coffee??? Ofcourse i did. :]

Darlin' it aint easy.

2009-12-01T21:33:00.000-08:00

I managed to sleep for a few damn good hours. The weather is just nice to keep on snugglin' underneath your comfy blanky while starrin' up the ceiling. Oh - the joy. Oh well, I still have a website to design, a 2k words essay to finish, and an advertising campaign to finish. Oh the joy'. Never the less, after next week, everything will change. Everyone's gonna be free. Some are going away. And I might as well enjoy the moment.

Hello December...

2009-11-30T21:34:00.000-08:00

I love my new December-look blog layout.

Its friggin' awesome,no??

2009-11-30T08:53:00.000-08:00

Today marks the 1st day of December. The sound of it makes everything sound so awesome and full of excitement. I love december. Its the month I look forward to every year. Meanwhile, the clock is tickin', so is my head. Its about to explode. Damn this web design assignment. I hate it so very much.

Oh well, this too shall pass.

Rise and shine

2009-11-29T01:22:00.000-08:00

I cant wait for xmas. Xmas is awesome. I love xmas to the max. Its a feeling nothing in the world can buy. December is the month of the year i always look forward to. I personally think it's the best month of all months. Yes, I'm very biased. :]

Well, can you blame me for loving december so much? A star was born in this very month too. See? P.E.R.F.E.C.T.I.O.N.

Shit happened all around the year. I'm just lookin' forward for the good things to happen. So much excitement and expectations, but i'm sure it's worth it. Its funny how things can change but remains the same. Yeah, so many questions, so many answers heard too. Meanwhile, lets just embrace whatever comes through your way. :]

Very Random

2009-11-27T05:10:00.001-08:00

YEN, I WANT THOSE PILLLSSSSSS TOOO!!!!!

Nata Rocks.

Confessions

2009-11-27T04:11:00.000-08:00

Ever since i was little, I never really had the chance to get to know my dad as how a son is supposed to know about his dad. My parents got separated when i was 12. I still remember the day my family and i went to the court to get the thing done. I never question why this kinda thing happened in my life. I never blame God for what has happened back then. At the back of my head, I always know things happened for good reasons. I know that life goes on no matter what happens. I fall sometimes, but I never gave up. My childhood was a happy childhood i guess. Although i've seen alot of quarreling in the family, i still know that no matter what, family will always be family. All my life, my dad has never acknowledge my success. He never said those words you wanna hear when you get good results. To him, getting good results is not enough. Nothing I do impressed him. He never give me stuffs, he never get me anything. As a kid, I chose books over toys. I remember those days when i kept all my pocket money just to get storybooks. I love reading. My mum buys me books very frequently too cos' she knows how much books meant to me. Yes, I was a nerd. But who knew i grew up to be someone so awesome. ok ok, just kiddin'. Anyways, what I'm trying to say is, the way i am today is a perception of things(shitty and not so shitty things) that happened in my past, mostly during my childhood days, shaped me into who i am today. For what i was devoid of the most, i seek them now the most too. Talking, socializing and compliment is what i prioritize a lot in my life. I often spend ample of time talking and letting the people im really close to know how much they mean to me. I love buying stuffs for them and i really wanna make sure that i make them know that when i say that i will always be there for them, i really make sure and meant it the way i mean it. I never fail to stand up for them too and i always have time for them. I wanna give what i never really had in my life. Bunny always tell me that im too nice, that i have to say no sometimes. And i agreed to saying no sometimes. I listened. i always listen to what he have to say. He is a big brother i met along the way after all. Dont you agree to the part where God made you the way you are today for good reasons? You are after all in this world to experience being you. I guess it's balance. There are nice people in this world, and obviously the not so nice ones too. I cant help it but im just being myself most of the time. Maybe im too nice, maybe im not. I believe in karma. what goes around comes around. If everyone in this world acts very selfishly, then there wouldnt be mother theresa, mahatma gandhi, nelson mandela and so on in the first place. What bugs me the most is the part where people love to assume and judge by how they see things, which is just by the surface, and not whats within. I was one of them once upon a time. Ive learnt my lesson long time ago. I dont need to prove to anyone about my sexual orientation by having a gf at the moment. When the time comes, the truth will totally unfold itself and you will then know who's gay in every ways. I know the one for me is somewhere out there. She's just with all the wrong guy(s). Although i am so sick of people assuming that im gay, i will not let it get to me. Im just so annoyed that they think my obviously NOT GAY friend is gay.wtf. This is bullshit, honestly. Why must you involve others too. Urgh. Oh well.

Im gonna carry on being optimistic cos' I know it sure will pay off. As long as my direction is set and i stay on course, there is no limit or restriction on what can be achieved. If we cant go far, we still can dream at least.

Multiple Orgasms

2009-11-19T04:41:00.000-08:00

Goodbye Acer.

You've been an awesome companion.

Your contributions are so much appreciated.

You will be miss.

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NOT!!!

HELLO AWESOMENESSSSSSSS

Im so friggin' happy.
Thank's Lord.

Next stop...........

Sony Ericsson W350

LOVE <3

Taradumdum's of life

2009-11-16T04:41:00.000-08:00

Now I know why you never made it into my future. Cos you were never in my past, nor present. Period.

Sometimes it takes a mistake from your past to make your life a blessing in your future.

Make sense? It will. Someday.

:]

Random is awesome

2009-11-15T02:15:00.000-08:00

I love being random. Like today I just wore a random shirt with a random bermuda shorts. And drove around randomly. Well, at least it breaks your old boring routine right? Anyways, speakin' of which....I went to Borneo convention center last week and captured some random moments.

Well, I told you random is fun. Now, go and break the rule. Be random!

Movie reviews

2009-11-13T01:31:00.000-08:00

Boys and girls, go and watch My sister's keeper. If you like family oriented movies, you are ought to watch it. It's very touching, and it teaches you the values of life. :]

And I love the scores and ost's of this movie. Go and check it out!

If you like Megan Fox go and watch Jennifer's body. Just don't expect so much and you'll be fine. Honestly, the movie didn't Wow-ed me. Except for the part where Megan and another hot chick made out. hehe. Kinky!

Want something more thrilling and horrifying? Get your ass to the nearest cinema and watch The fourth kind. It's worth watching and trust me it will leave you hangin' like a disco ball. Why? The rest is all up to you to view it or not. :]

In the end what you believe is really up to you.

...

2009-11-10T05:16:00.000-08:00

Just when you thought life is doin' great, it bites you in the ass. Yeah, typical. I just feel like running away from all these, I just wanna go somewhere people cant find me. I just wanna have a peace of mind - reading a couple of books, or having a hot mug of coffee on a comfy couch while staring blankly at the ceiling. I just wanna run away and let things fall back into places. I cant wait for Christmas, where miracles' do happen. I'll definitely miss alot of things and the people I'm always with. The truth certainly hurts, which totally will lead to depression and alot of tears. But deep down I always know I will be fine.

I promise I will.

Anything I'm not...

2009-11-10T04:10:00.000-08:00

"I will never be, I will never be tall, no
And I will never be, never ever be sure of it all
Oh, why is the world so cruel to me
When all, all I ever want to be is anything I'm not

Gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not
I'm not

I will never be, I will never be you, no
I will always be, I will always be me, that I know
But oh, even though I'm happy being me
I want to get away from all this harsh reality..."

2009-11-02T07:00:00.000-08:00

"Sometimes I just dono what to do. But when I know what I'm doin', I do it with all my heart. I dont fake it. I just do it. Cos I know that the most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or touched, they must be felt from the heart."

2009-10-27T09:06:00.000-07:00

I misssss my retarded brother so much. I miss his theories on things. I miss buggin' and whinnin' to him for every lil' things. I miss his lectures. I miss being yelled at. I miss hangin' out and chillin' with him.

Damn. I'm such a pathetic loser without him. Lord, have mercy.

Of mints and Coffee.

2009-10-27T06:26:00.000-07:00

People I mix around with looks something like this......

I Swear.

And I want his shirt!

Damn.

Randoms

2009-10-23T04:15:00.000-07:00

I Love my mum.

My 3 bestfriends

eRic

My awesome brother Booney

My lil sis Nata

and Angelina Jolie

WTF

2009-10-21T05:24:00.000-07:00

Lets play a game called "SPOT THE DEX AND ERIC", sponsored and designed by LimKokWing institute of Creative Technology.

It's as easy as 123. TRUST ME.

Just search for Dex and Eric and walla!!! You WIN.

Ready???

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Let's reveal the answers.

TADA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously guys, like WTF???!!!

Love Struck

2009-10-21T04:54:00.000-07:00

The other day I was surfing the net and I googled for anything on Pop Art and I found this....

Again, I think I'm in Love.

Wishlist.....

2009-10-19T09:54:00.003-07:00

Dear God,
You know how good I've been throughout these years (yeah right...)... I excelled, I strive for the best, I respected my elders, I helped the ones in need(I really did ok....), I never fail to pray to you every night, All I'm askin' for is to have my own Macbook Pro which I really need to do my damn assignments which really requires me to have a top speed laptop, and an Ipod touch to soothe my ears.

I promise I'll behave and contribute more in my daily life. I'll promise to keep on practicing good karma.

Amen.

P/s - I too hope that I can fly to KL at the end of the year with my mum. We really need to get outta here. Amen.

Bits and pieces.

2009-10-19T03:41:00.000-07:00

"In the end, these little little things in life - the Imperfections,makes everything so perfect."

I love that line. It's so true.

We heart the Beach.

2009-10-18T02:19:00.000-07:00

My peeps and I had a splendid and awesome time at the beach yesterday.

I love the sand, the breeze, the warm/cold water, the smell, and best of all the people - My awesome friends.

We went all out and as far as we felt like goin'. Had a nice dinner at Hijau after that and went straight home.

P/s - I love you guys.
THAT'S GAY, but I mean it. Finally another gathering.

Btw,check this out.

Dont you think he looks so much like eric?? Yes, ERIC. hahaha. Random - oh well.

And I love this pic of her.

Peace out.

She's all that.

2009-10-12T09:38:00.000-07:00

Little did we all know.

Life and its surprises.

Happy by DexRose

2009-09-10T09:58:00.000-07:00

I am happy.....

cos..................

1. I had a nice-family-quality time dinner earlier tonight.

2. My awesome best friend will be back soon.

3. I am seeing my retarded brother Booney most of the time now, and I am currently
helping him designing his Myth-Obsession logo.

4. Class is starting soon. Enthusiast much.

5. My mum is happier and content.

6. Lost 3kg. On and off. (dammit)

7. I am still alive and breathing.

8. So freakin' excited for my grandparents' 5oth anniversary.

9. Single and not desperate.

10. God is great.

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Confessions of a teenage drama king

2009-09-05T21:41:00.000-07:00

Dear party people and poopers, This map is gonna be your guide to
LimKokWing Borneo.




Now, where you sit in the cafeteria or class is crucial
because you got everybody there.




You got your freshmen,




preps, JV jocks,



Asian nerds,




cool Asians,




varsity jocks,




unfriendly black 'hotties',




girls who eat their feelings,




girls who don't eat anything,




desperate wannabes,



sexually active band geeks,





and last but not least....


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the greatest people
you will ever meet

*Where's annabel and gerald???







and the worst.
Beware of The Plastics.

*plastic parody - gerald,booney,eric and dom are my fugly bitches,NOT YOURS.

I heart my mum

2009-08-31T10:13:00.000-07:00

My mum's bday is comin' soon. 7days away to be precised. Meaning to say that her bday is on the 7th of Sep. If only I have the cash, I have so much things I wish I could get her. Dammit. I know she loves and has been wanting a huge handbag so that she could stuff her make up and such. I also want to get her a new make up set cos I know she loves make up. And perfume too cos I think its something that she can keep for quite some time.

I will make sure it happens and dear Lord have mercy. I really want it to happen. I BELIEVE it will happen. I love to be optimistic although sometimes my mind tells me the opposite. My mum sacrificed ALOT for me and the rest of my siblings, its time for me to show some Love. :] Hence, I'm planning to sell my dear Canon Powershot sx100is camera, which is only few months old. Anyone interested pls let me know. Price is negotiable. I got it for RM1k++.

Besides, materials like this can always be purchase. But having a great mum is once in a lifetime. No money in the world can buy you an awesome mum. Her love is priceless. Right guys??? :] I can always get myself another cam when I got extra cash. Plus, I've been eying this latest Nikon SLR, D5000. Its oh so awesome. It snaps and captures videos too. Dont you just love those designers?? One day I shall lay my hands on you oh dear sexie cam.

Wish me luck sexie people.

Natalicious'

2009-08-30T21:57:00.000-07:00

This is dedicated to Nata, my sexified lil' sis from another mother. Who has last seen in a cute yellow dress with flower prints. Oh what a darling!!! *winks*

Nata, I've known you since like forever. Ok ok,its been like what...4years now right? That's pretty long man. We had our joy, fun, we had our season in the sun.wtf, I hate Westlife. As i was saying, the Nata I know has bad case of self-esteem. She thinks she's unappealing(which is untrue),and she thinks that she will never be appealing in any ways. GIMME A BREAK. BUT wait, this cute lil' bomb proved herself wrong. WHY?? cos' she is now so confident that she even appear in public with dresses, hot pants(admit it yen,YOU LOVE those!),girly and dangly bracelets, etc etc.

This is Her,then...

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HAHAHA. ok2, I exaggerated. Its not that bad. She's still cute.

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Damn, I should've took a pic of her in her outfit yesterday. Nata, you are so awesome. Stay that way honehhhh!!! :]

This is pretty much what her heart has been singing all this while, till' now.

I saw a spider
I didn't scream
Cause I can belch the alphabet
just double dog dare me

And I chose "tang-su-do" over ballet
and I'd take these suckers down
cause they just get in my way.

The way you look at me
is kind of like a little sister.
Not like a good vice
and it leaves me nothing but blisters.

So I don't wanna be
one of the boys
one of your guys
just give me a chance to prove to you
that I just want to be
one of the girls
pretty in pearls
not one of the boys.

so over the summer something changed.
I started reading seventeen
and shaving my legs.
and I studied Lolita religiously
and I walked right into school
and caught you staring at me.
Cause
I don't want you now
but now you're going to have to take a number
It's okay, maybe one day
but not until you give me my diamond ring.

just give me a chance to prove to you
that I just want to be
your homecoming queen
their poster dream...
not one of the boys, I wanna be a flower not a dirty ring
I wanna smell like roses, not a baseball team.

Meanwhile, Nata has been spotted smiling so much cos' she has finally gotten what she wants. A dream guy. HE issuch a lucky man. :] And I'm so proud of you Nata. You go lil' sis. I swear Im gonna burn your hair if you ditched me.hahaha. kidin.

CHEERS.

Cherished

2009-08-29T10:38:00.000-07:00

"There are songs, there are complaints. There are stories, there are words. Words are forgotten, memories are remembered. In this world, all of us are victims of memories. Some joys, a little sadness. If there is a bond, it lets go. If there is a mirror, it breaks. We are all in difficulty. This heart is in this heart. Memories, memories, memories."

Party People

2009-08-23T03:39:00.000-07:00

Last night was oh so awesome. Went to amoebar to club. We were all workin' the non-existing dance floor. Sexie Bel, Roza, Roza's peeps, Jim, annabel's sis Jessabel and her bf Lesley. And my awesome pal Chary. He's one of the part timer bar tender there. Dude, he's an awesome bar tender person. So, GO TO AMOEBAR BAHHHH!!!! hahah.

We partied till 2am. I had around 9-10cans of Heineken. As the night gets older, the music gets louder.

We were like this......

And like that........

All in all, it was an awesome night.

The end

Skipalong

2009-08-21T02:50:00.000-07:00

"The best things in life always come when we aren't looking for them, so give yourself a break, and make some room in your expectations to allow the possibilities for love to enter. And they will."

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Bunny told me to listen to that song few days ago. Its really catchy and cute.haha. Its called The show. Lenka is an australian actress turn singer. Her 1st album is self-titled. Ive check out her tracks, for a new comer she's not bad at all. If you like slow, catchy and very upbeat kinda songs, you should get her album at your nearest store. Or be awesome like me and download it through torrent. :]

Oh the love.

She's a beauty too. Oh the joy.

Hippilicious.

2009-08-19T21:50:00.000-07:00

I've constantly been told that I look like a hippie. Is that a good thing? I think hippies are awesome. Almost everywhere I go, people will start sayin' such thing. But I think its pretty cool. So, lets see........

If I were a Hippie...

1. I'll have to have long thick wavy hair...
Which I kinda have.

And wear bindi's and hoop ear rings? hahah.erm,owhhh kay....

2. Have an adopted family of Hippies, cos' mine aint' hippies. AT ALL.

3. Go for naked outdoor activities. NUDITY is highly practiced.

Besides, I have so much flabs and ridiculously huge man boobs, but you didnt have to agree or even picture that in your mind k. Pfft.

4. ROUND SHAPED SHADES, with a variety of colours to choose from. Loves it. Its so Ozzy osbourne-ish. Dude, he's such a legend okay.

5. To accessories, I might as well get a hippie-ish dog. Or should I, cos I think it will steal all the eyes away from me. But who cares... Hippie dog shall it be!

Loves the wig bro. Adds flava to it.

6. Be in a relatioship with a hippie chick. I dig this part y'all.

Especially the one that plays guitar, NAKED.

7. Be in touch with the latest hippie trends in Hollywood.

8. Read books about other hippies.

9. A must have hippie ride. Its so incomplete without this awesome ride man.

Last BUT not least................

10. Get married HIPPIE STYLE.

Don't we all agree to that? hahahhaha. Oh yesss we do, we do, WE DO!-
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LOVE,PEACE,FREEDOM.

The show...Live like you're dying.

2009-08-19T03:33:00.000-07:00

A second, a minute, and hour, a day goes by. A warm bath,a good laugh, an old song that you know by heart.

Location : Ranchan, Serian Day : Monday, 17tn August

Made new friends at college last week. Two girls from KK, Sabah. One is Trish, the other Cassey. Such nice people.

Trish, Cassey.

Cassey, Trish, some rockstar. HAHAHAHAHHAH!!!

Trish and the dude from the block.

Btw, did I mention that Jim tagged along too? hahah. Oops, not so important I guess.hahah.

Trish fell sick after that. Sent her to the hospital today and got some meds. The rest is still unwritten. Btw guys, she's very excited to meet all of YOU. Yes you, the ones close to me. She's very eager to explore Kuching too. Meanwhile, lets just enjoy the rain. Lets just sit back and relax ey.

Rock on Guys! Cheers pig dog.

Bitter Heart

2009-08-14T22:27:00.000-07:00

I declare the gheynesssss. I fuckin' misssss my retarded brother and my best pal/ partner in crime more than ever now. I am so pathetic without them. Like waffles without chocolate and cappuccino. Or like the sky without the moon and the stars. Or even worst, like the earth without gravity. Damn right I'm dramatic. But what the heck, I totally miss those assesss.damn. And now I'm totally crushing over 'something'. Which totally made sense why I miss them more. I need those moral supports and theories and bad lame jokes to make me feel better lah!!! See, I even use 'lah'. That's a perfect sign I'm fallin' apart. Period.

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Guys, behold for the next 'it' thing. At least thats how I see it comin. I'm sure some of you have heard about this pretty lady, Zee Avi. She was born in Miri, Sarawak. *claps* Dude, we should be so proud to have a Sarawakian having a recording label from the US. The same label that produced albums for The Recounters and yadi yadi yada.

Malaysian Zee Avi (formerly known as Koko Kaina) is set to take the US by storm with the release of her first single 'Bitter Heart' which is taken off her debut album that will drop on 19 May 2009. Zee is signed with Jack Johnson's Brushfire Records and is the first female recording artiste in his label. I personally feel that she has such a golden voice. A voice so angelic, so pure. This is something I don't do everyday guys. I don't and never compliment a Malaysian singer. No offense. But this, I've to admit it. She is awesome.

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Enjoy y'all.

Sanctity of brothers

2009-08-13T10:16:00.000-07:00

This is becoming such a cliche but I really miss my retards : my bestpal and my retarded brother, ofcourse . I dont give a damn about DNA's or the term 'related by blood' cos the brotherhood between us is stronger than blood. At least that's how I feel about it. We fight, we argue and we quarrel about alot of things but we agree on every other things.

We can't stand each other sometimes but most of the time we are always together cos we have alot of things in common and we do respect each other. I guess that's what matters after all. When it comes to honesty, we are always honest with each other. We too share our dirtiest deepest secrets.

The truth surely hurts but its ok cos we all learn from mistakes after all. The best part of all is that we always have each others back and trust me, we do need one another no matter what.

Kisses and cake.

2009-08-11T06:14:00.000-07:00

Its funny how everyone tend to judge a book by its cover. I know I'm one of them. Well, somehow. Its a bad habit everyone has. I know its pretty lame but I have a confession to make. I may regret this one day but what the heck. I am currently 'in love' with this soap opera called Brothers and Sisters. I know what you're thinkin'. You'll be like,"wtf,thats beyond lame." Trust me, I think its lame too once upon a time. It is still aired on Star world (Ch.711 on astro). Nowadays it is aired every week days at 9am, and there's repetitions at 4pm, daily.

What's it about?

The show is centered on the Walker family, an American family of Irish and Jewish heritages. Some of the family members are involved in the family-owned business running Ojai Food Co, a produce distributor. Most of the action is set in the Greater L.A area. Its full of family dramas, affairs, etc. The number 1 reason why I like watching it is simply because despite the problems and the issues this family encountered, they still manage to stick as a family and solve their problems one at a time. Most of the time they quarrel but in a very sadistic and sarcastic way. All in all, its very entertaining. Defenitely something I can relate too.

My favourite eye candy of the show? :]

Emily Van Camp. She is such a sweet heart. She's so cute. She's adorable. She's all that. I know, I know. I'm very overwhelmed by her role in the show. But who can blame me right? I'm just a normal human being. haha.

Speakin' of which, Mr.Booney, if you're reading this (which will totally be unlike it), your download is completed. Btw, its some documentary about surfing guys. It aint porn.

And Booney,fyi, you still owe me an expensive big ass ice cream, and you still owe me movie night you ass. I have no credit to reach you btw. Don't miss me so much k bro? I know you will.

ADMIT IT BRO.

There's a she-wolf in the closet...

2009-08-10T05:51:00.000-07:00

I bet you agree if I said that the weather these days is like hotter than me. Like wayyyyyyyy hotter y'all. haha. Ok ok, I know I'm perasan. But so are you. Admit it. =P It is said that the temperature in Kuching is higher than KL even. Its 32 degrees in KL, and in Kuching its 35 degrees. wtf.

Seriously man, lets move to Atlanta or somethin. Or even better, lets go skinny dippin'.

That would be awesome. But I should not put more naked pics or people's asses in my blog or otherwise people might come to my blog just to see 'porn'. Anyways, even the sea water is gettin' saltier and I don't know why. Could it be due to the weather as well??? Who knows. I went to the beach last Sat with Bunny and his cousins and bros. I had fun dippin' in the not-so-cold sea water. But the breeze was awesome. :]

Speakin' of awesome, the hot latina Shakira has a new album - She wolf. Her first single is hence, she wolf. You are ought to check out the vid. The way her body moves and all is beyond awesomeness. She has the body of a greek goddess. It moves like as if it was boneless, if you get what I mean.

And yes, I Love shakira cos she's simply HOT, TALENTED and what else can I say...she's just superb man.

So what are you waiting for Guys? Go and check it out ey. You'll not regret it. Trust me. :]

And GIRLS, no cursing. Don't be so jealous okay.hahahaha.

The way I am

2009-08-03T23:58:00.000-07:00

"I woke up this morning with a funny taste in my head. Spackled some butter over my whole grain bread. Something tastes different, maybe it's my tongue. Something tastes different, suddenly I'm not so young. I'm just a stranger, even to myself. A re-arranger of the proverbial bookshelf."

It suck being sick. Period. Who likes being sick anyways... I've been having flu and chesty cough, and on and off fever this past few days. Ever since the funeral tho to be precised. I just hope I'll get better soon cos being sick is unfabulous. haha. Did I mention that my wisdom tooth is also growing at the mo. This is like, what, the fifth?

Speakin' of which, being sick makes me crave for alot of stuff. I want chocolate, I want kinder bueno, I want strawberry milkshake, I have to get my hands on the Big Apl donuts once I'm not so broke and up on my feet. Good lord have mercy.

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MULTIPLE ORGASMS isnt it???

Some might say its better than sex...??? I'll leave that to your imaginations.

Anyways, Yen and I had been having movie marathons. The other day we spent like almost 12hrs watching movies. We started off with Black. Its an award winning hindi movie. Then we watched P.S i Love you which totally made Yen finished a box of tissues. Trust me, she so did.haha. Then we watched random episodes of ANTM cycle 9. It was already night by then. Lastly, we both agreed to watch something funny. So we chose to watch What happens in Vegas.

It was awesome, awesome, awesome. Right Nata?? :]

Meanwhile, Bunny loves his highlights soooooo much that he told me to upload it in my blog and FB. Ofcourse you like it Bunny, I did it rmember??haha. Loves it too bro. But my highlights didnt turn out right and Bunny blames my hair.wtf. You're a lousy hairstylist afterall....BOO YOU!!!

There's this really funny pic of him that I took at Wind Cave. I really feel like posting it up but he warned me earlier on. He said if i post it up, he's so gonna disown me.haha. Damn you butthead. BLACKMAILER SON OF A _____.

Ok2, Im kiddin'. Its aite. If booney wants it that way, so it shall be that way.

Anyways, Im gonna go off now. And maybe make myself some aromathic tea to drink. Cheers to all the sick people out there. Ok, that sounded very negative. But you get what I mean. Take care y'all. Godbless.

Oh what a day...

2009-08-03T04:28:00.000-07:00

" When you need me but do not want me, then I must stay. When you want me but no longer need me, then I have to go. It's rather sad, really, but there it is."

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Been wanting to post these awesome pics up. Pics from Bunny's niece's birthday and our trip to Serikin and Wind cave,Bau. The party and the trip was so awesome. I had so much fun. :]

Behold....Serikin.

Wind Cave, Bau...

Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. But today is a gift, that's why it is called the present. I cherish these good times of my life and I leave the bitter ones behind....Afterall, all we can do is keep breathing,no?

Keep Breathing...

2009-07-23T20:23:00.000-07:00

"The storm is coming but I don't mind.
People are dying, I close my blinds.
All that I know is I'm breathing now.

I want to change the world - Instead I sleep.
I want to believe in more than everything around us.
But all that I know is I'm breathing.
All I can do is keep breathing."

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Had a great dinner with Bunny's family last night. At Da Light, King Centre. It was not planned. It happens that I picked my retarded big bro from work and we headed to Spring first to get more bleach and hair color, then we headed to his place. Varga, Bunny's younger bro came home and told to get ready cos' their parents, Uncle Tipik and Auntie Mary were waiting at Da Light. It was like a spur of a moment thing. We were downloading vids on youtube.

Arrived at Da Light around 7ish, and the whole family gathered. Uncle and auntie were there, together with Sharaf, one of their nieces, Reja the 2nd youngest and Bunny and I came with Chary and Varga. Lingga who happen to be the eldest, together with his wife and daughter, Shamin came after a while.

Lingga, Sharaf.

Shamin, and her mama

Lingga, Sharaf, Varga

Booney

Sharaf, Varga, Chary

FOOD*

Reja, Uncle Tipik

Auntie Mary, niece

Chary, Reja, Uncle

At first, I felt like I was intruding their family dinner. I did told Bunny. He went,"yeah dexter,you are." ,and smiled. Yeah, he's such an ass. I learn from the best too.

We ordered single set type of dish, and Bunny and I ordered this rice set called Mix Rice. There were grilled pork, steamed chicken, and also grilled ones. It was great. I enjoyed myself. I too felt so welcomed. I thought they were one big happy family. I like them. They joke around, and they tell stories to one another. It puts a smile on my face. If I were to pick a theme song for them, it'd be that "We are Family" song. :] Although Bunny's dad, Uncle Tipik may look fierce, he's such a nice man.

Thanks Uncle and Auntie, for the short and sweet dinner.

After dinner, me retarded big brotha and I went to send Chary, Varga and Reja back home. Both of us went straight to my place after that to get some hair done. Yes, AGAIN. :]
All and all, it was a great night after all.

The Golden state...

2009-07-23T00:08:00.000-07:00

Its rainin' heavily outside and here I am thinkin' and wondrin' to myself where and when to get more bleach and hair dye for Mr.Booney and I. Yes people, there will be another highlighting session. Only this time, I might wanna get mine done too. Well, maybe.

Speakin' of which, had dinner and went for a movie with me retarded brother last night. We went to Sri Shan, Ban Hock road. Food was ok, not an A+ in my list tho. But worth trying for those who loves Indian cuisines. Well, Bunny does. Our movie was at 10.45pm, while waiting we went over to water front to hang out. SO MANY foreigners around. We sat next to Mr.Petrus's famous landmark - The steel hornbill. Yes, you ought to know, or else....

Anyway, we watched Drag me to hell last night. Out of 10, I give 2. WHY? well, it didnt reeach my satisfaction and the standard was kinda low for a horror movie. Bunny thinks it was good and very exciting.

But one thing I have to admit is that it is kinda disgusting. Some scenes will make you go "EUWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!". Like for instance the part where the old lady bits that chick's chin. GROSSSSSSSS. It was green and slimey. wtf.

The movie ended around 12.40am. Bunny and I headed home and on the way home he told me some ghost story. Thx butthead, I really needed that. Next time maybe you can try smearing me with BLOOD!!!

And yes, he too forced me to put up a pic of his newly highlighted dread locks, done by OFCOURSE, me! :] And fyi, he is so muchhhhhhhh more vainer than me.

That's vainer with a capital V.

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I too miss my bestfriend so much. damn. DUDE, come back soon pls. :[

Over the Rainbow...

2009-07-21T23:33:00.000-07:00

Few things can make us feel crazier than

expecting something from someone who

has nothing to give

Few things can frustrate us more than

trying to make a person someone

he or she isn't;

we feel crazy when we try to pretend

that person is someone he or she is not

We may have spent years negotiating

with reality concerning particular people

from our past and our present

We may have spent years trying to get

someone to love us in a certain way,

when that person cannot or will not

It is time to let it go

It is time to let him or her go

That doesn't mean we can't love

that person anymore It means that

we will feel the immense relief that

comes when we stop denying reality

and begin accepting

We release that person to be who

he or she actually is

We stop trying to make that person

be someone he or she is not

We deal with our feelings and

walk away from the destructive system

We learn to love and care differently

in a way that takes reality into account

We enter into a relationship with that

person on new terms -

taking our needs and ourselves into account

If a person is addicted to

alcohol, other drugs, misery, or

other people, we let go of his or her addiction;

we take our hands off it

We give his or her life back

And we, in the process, are given our life

and freedom in return

We stop letting what we are not getting

from that person control us

We take responsibility for our life

We go ahead with the process of loving

and taking care of ourselves

We decide how we want to interact with

that person, taking reality and our own

best interests into account

We get angry, we feel hurt, but we land

in a place of forgiveness

We set him or her free, and we become

set free from bondage

Today, I will work at detaching in love

from troublesome people in my life

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I will strive to accept reality in my relationships

I will give myself permission to take care

of myself in my relationships, with emotional,

physical, mental, and spiritual freedom

for both people as my goal

What if...

2009-07-19T20:15:00.000-07:00

What if we stopped having a ball

What if the paint chips from the wall

What if there's always cups in the sink

What if I'm not what you think I am

What if I fall further than you

What if you dream of somebody new

What if I never let you win.... And chase you with a rolling pin....

Well, what if I do?

Cause I am giving up on making passes

and I am giving up on half empty glasses

and I am giving up on greener grasses

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I am giving up...

For you.

Dread is not Dead.

2009-07-18T06:18:00.000-07:00

Everyone has a certain obsession. I know I do. But when it comes to hair, my retarded brother from another mother knows it all. He is currently OBSESSED with dread locks. Yes, he is. He too confessed that his biggest influence for this is non other than Munky from Korn.

He LOVES em.

Just recently, yesterday to be exact, Booney and I went to hunt for hair bleach. Lord, have mercy. Who knew that the place I used to go at Wisma called Esmore is closed.wtf. 3years ago when I had my Mohawk, I used to bleach it red,etc. Nowadays, I just couldnt care less. But who knows, I might get some highlights done soon.

My hairstylist? Mr.Lineker Rabanni.hahaha. It better be good bro..
or else.................................

Speakin' of which, we totally succeeded in our bleech hunting. We went to alot of places. Started of at Wisma, ended at The Spring. We manage to get it at Miniature Corner, The Spring. Thank goodness. Cos Mr.Lineker Rabanni is so gonna kill me if we didnt. And he's gonna blame me for his social life breakdown. Well, you get what I mean.

Remember this old,boring hair without high lights? Say goodbye to boredom.
(dnkill me booney.i still love ur dreads bro.)

And say Hello to awesomeness. :]

It took us one whole night to get the colour right. The moral of the story is, bleaching takes time and never choose the color blue. Asians with black hari will never really succeed in getting blue hair, unless you get it done with the profesionnals which will cost you $$$.

Capishe?? I thot so. Btw, thats pronounse as KAPISH, as in UNDERSTAND in Italian.

Yes, life is good.

Tagged by doreen.

2009-07-18T06:06:00.000-07:00

I wasnt reluctant to do this cos' doreen tagged us as Hotties.haha. KIDIN' Y'ALL.

1. Besides your lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
hmm, somewhere.

2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
Dumbfounded. dont ask why.

3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
Me retarded rocker turn skim boarder brother from another mother.

4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?
I don't think so. Cos i dn have anything to prove to u that I'm spoilt.

5.Will you ever donate blood?
yeaps.

6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Definiteness.

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
Depends. I dono. nah.

8.What does your last text message say ?
"ok cool, chill la..."

9.What are you thinking right now?
Words to describe a feeling of how to answer this Q.

10. Do you want someone to be with you now?
So much.

11.What was the time you went to bed last night?
around 1.30am?

12.Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
KL

13.Is someone on your mind right now?
yeah...doesnt really matter tho.

14. 10 HOT PEOPLE to do this quiz .THIS IS an ORDER ! (you don't have to do it if you don't want to)
YOU, yes YOU.

There's more but I didnt feel like tagging anyone. So the rest of the questions are not answerable.haha. It was fun tho.

Dancin' in the moon light.

2009-07-14T21:06:00.000-07:00

Went for a 2days one night trip with the rockstar turn skim boarder retarded brother and some new made friends last week end. It was fun. Bunny think i didnt had any fun at all but i really did butthead. In my own way. Despite what happened that night and all... The thought of you wanting me to have fun and the effort you show and you even paid for me so that I could join you is so awesome I could cry. haha. I really mean it. And I apreciate it. SO MUCH.

The best part is, I have so many pics to prove to you that I had so much fun...and you know pics dont lie right? U musn't disagree. Stop beeing such an ass booney.

There's like tonnes of pics man.

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We left around 11.30pm.

Arrived around 2pm???

The whole thing evolves around beer,food,sandy beach,FUCKIN' sandflies, and more beer.

Nothing is stoppin' him from being vain. Trust me.

CAMWHORE

We felt like we were in Thai or somethin'...haha.

The story didnt end there. Cos the next day we went hiking at Gunung Gading. It was awesome. Really tiring though. But the waterfall was worth it.

We finally left for Kuching around 4pm or so. Arrived before 6pm. My feet died. Seriously. Goodbye to the entertainment industry.haha.wtf.

Did I mention earlier that Bunny is such a Narcissist??? Iv proof.

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We also went to the rainfest preview at ampitheatre. It was so fuckin' awesome. DAMN.

Till then, take care guys.

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2009-07-09T10:02:00.000-07:00

"I look upon my life as an empty stage to which I'm allowed to bring my own script. In my heart, I feel that a legend is about to be born. That legend would be me."

Plenty of Paper.

2009-07-06T04:33:00.000-07:00

So much to say, too little words to express with.

Feeling low and depress of the same old shit will not solve anything.

I miss these asses.

They're pretty fucked up but so awesome.

:]

Meanwhile.......................
I will...

Foxy Lady.

2009-07-03T03:38:00.000-07:00

Megan Fox is beyond hotness. She is obviously the next Angelina Jolie man. How can you say no to Megan Fox?? Well, unless you're gay or blind or you just simply have bad taste and gayyyy. Im sure you get the point. SHE IS PERFECTION. Let the pics speaks for itself ey.

She can wear anything and still look oh_so_orgasmic!!! hahaha. Need i say more???

Nuff said y'all.

Blah Blah Blah

2009-06-29T21:30:00.000-07:00

Ever since I was little, I had been eying stuffs by Ed Hardy. The man is a genius. Christian Audigier (born 1958) is a French fashion designer and entrepreneur. Originally from Avignon, France, he has designed for such brands as Affliction, Lee, Liberto, Kookai, Von Dutch and Naf Naf. He made his first mark as a fashion jeans designer. One of his most notable achievements was being the primary force behind the rise of Von Dutch, and making the Von Dutch hat a style trend.

With his wife and kids.

I personally think his work is so awesome and its quite affordable and most celebrities digs his stuff too.

Madonna

Beckham

I've been dreaming of having a pair of jeans by Ed Hardy and recently(actually few months back)my awesome aunt and uncle from KL texted me and asked me for my waist size, it was supposed to be a surprise from my uncle but I made my aunt told me. She said that 1 of my uncles friends in KL, a pilot, is flyin' to L.A, yes, as in Los Angeles. Apparently, my uncle told him to get me a pair of Ed Hardy jeans, straight from L.A. WOW. I know. I was shock. I was beyond excited. I still cant believe im gonna wear somethin' straight from L.A itself and if you wana purchase these awesome jeans, get your ass to Suria KLCC,KL, and it will cost you starting from RM2800. That's like a 2months salary, unless you're freakin' rich.

And if ur a sexy chick, plssssssssss go and get urself these sexie bikinis. Its such a turn on. haha. Seriously man.

Im not sure about other guys, but girlsssss, i totally dig em'.

Nasty Sunny Beam.

2009-06-29T06:52:00.000-07:00

And he scoressssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!

I totally pass my JPJ test today. Thank god its over. :]

i had to resit and i totally pass altho it was raining and the road was so freakin slippery. The tyres made sound like as if i was drifting.haha. I finally can proudly announce to the world that ill get me license soon. Im so proud of myself. Thx y'all,for the wishes. Apreciate it so much.

I no longer have to worry or get nervous over it and i can finally smile and say Ive a drivers license. What more do I need? Ive a car to drive my ass around. :] And I no longer have to wait for anyone to send me or pick me up which is so freakin awesome man.

Lets celebrate man. Life's so awesome when everything falls in the right places. Trust me.

Dream Boys(Girls)...

2009-06-24T21:18:00.000-07:00

Obsessions is not a crime.

We make really unatractive girls,dont we??? Damn....thank god we aint girls man.

Last Gawai.

2009-06-24T04:18:00.000-07:00

Last Gawai...I gave you my heart, But the very next day you gave it away. This year, to save me from tears, I'll give it to someone special!!!

Credits to Last Xmas for these lyrics.haha. Anyways, here are pics from last Gawai. Finally i get the chance to update and blog on this...As usual, every Gawai, my family and I will drive all the way up to Serian to celbrate with our relatives and grams. We are so bonded, I know. Which is good. :] This year, it gets more interesting cos' not only do I get to spend it with family, I also get to spend my Gawai with a bestfriend/distant cousin,(yes,we are related) a retarded yet awesome Brother Booney, and the sexie angel. Im so blessed, I know.

We spent around an hour and a half at my grams place then we went over to my uncle's at the other village, called Kg.Tangga. Dont ask me why its named after staircase, cos Ive no idea why. After a while, we drove our asses all the way to Tebekang where eric's grandparents are. Its not that far from Serian town. Maybe 20mins drive? So yeah...

Headed back to Kuching by 6-ish, then went to Dom's place. Had loads to drink and I felt so blardy bloated. Eric on the other hand wasnt feeling well. Poor dude. We were at Dom's till 1am or so. Once home, we slept like pigs.hahah.

BTW, the highlight of this years' Gawai is this famous convenient store burnt on Gawai's eve. What a tragic story ey? I somehow wonder how it happend. They said that a jealous man burnt the building. Or something like that. May the building rest in peace.

Amen. :]

Melt my heart to stone.

2009-06-23T22:54:00.000-07:00

The weather nowadays is so unpredictable. Its like so abrupt. First it rains very shyly, then few seconds after that its as hot as Miami. And I love miami. Hot latinas man. Hmm, anyways...I figured that my blog lay out, the previous one hurts my eyes so bad, altho its attractive and all, it has to go and here I am presenting to you the latest edition to this so called More confessions of a teenage drama king blog. It can get really out of hand sometimes yet it survives its lonely untouched days. What I'm saying here is pretty much self-explainotary.haha.

Anyways, little bit of updates. Last monday, I had my JPJ test. I passed the on the road part, and I flunked the 'Bahagian 2', the part where you have to drive up the hill and break and go forward after that. Guess what? The freakin car revfersed. Well, the clutch was like friggin' low and the horny ass JPJ officer, a guy who seems to be so biased cos he gives girls 3 chances where on the other hand I only got one. How fair! Damn man. I felt like my stomach was falling out my butt. Its been a while since I felt that way, and the weather wasn't any help. I was so damn moody to the point where I wasnnt nervous at all when I was on the road, in the car with the other JPJ officer who seems nicer and kinder. I passed with flying colours this time. Maybe if I didnt flunk the first test, I might not do well for the 2nd part. Maybe you know...who knows. The darndest things.

Enough with my horrible and unfortunate events of JPJ officers. I so fucking want a pet. A pet that can bark, or meows. I'm supposed to adopt two of angel's kitties last week. But plan was cancelled cos my nephew is prone to asthma. So no more kitties for me. Damn, they were so cute. The cute generations of Mimi Yu's.hahaha.

I went to the pet shop in the hood yesterday(sound so ghetto,i know), and the nice lady offered me a cute lil' puppy. Its a duschand breed. Its black in colour with white paws. Owh so adorable man. Ive been wanting a puppy. She said since Im like a regular customer, shes willing to give me a special prize. A puppy of pure dushcand breed for RM330, and its only 2months old. Its the cutest thing man. It looks something like this.

A grown up dachsund will look something like this.

Its a small breed dog, and it doesnt really grow. It grows longer but still short.haha. Cute,no? Annabel, I know ur feelin' me right now. Your puppy is so so fuckin' adorable. Man, I want 1 too. So that I can like walk the dog and name it Coco or Chico, and make it into a rockstar dog and do some piercings for it.haha. Joking people. But it isnt a bad idea after all man.

Meanwhile, Im still waiting for my download to complete. I hate it when its like 99.8% downloaded and yet it still take hours to download the other 0.02%. Damn, thats like ridiculous man. Anyways, I shall make myself a mug of hot coffee now...and wait 'patiently'. Hopefully it will be done soon.

Take care guys! Be good now.

My dear Nata.

2009-06-21T05:23:00.000-07:00

16th of June is a fairy tale. Why? cos Natasha binti Rusdy Wong was born on this particular day in the year 1988...and I was 1 yrs old.haha.wtf.

Anyways, this year Nata obviously had a great birthday. WHY??? cos she has one of the bestest parents in the world. WHY??? cos they spend over a thousand on her birthday party. WHERE???

HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.....

She

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Anyways, food was AWESOME. It was ORGASMIC...and all of us went sakai over the food. There was so much to choose from. Nata had to limit the guests cos its very costly. I'm sure Yen's dad regrets it now.haha. Kidin uncle Wong.hehe.

All in all, it was short,fun and sweet. Nata, we love you so much. You are the best. You rock, dn ever change. :]

666, a date to remember.

2009-06-06T06:36:00.001-07:00

I always tell Bunny that a brother may never be a brother, but a homie will always be a brother. Indeed, he is a brother to me. It doesn't matter what people say. We may not be related by blood, but the bond we have is stronger than brothers by blood. I'm so proud of the mentioned retard.haha. Who would have thought that we would be so fuckin' close man.

Anyways, this past few days(before Booney's bday),we have been planning for his surprise party. It took us few days to gather some cash and such. Alas, after few hours collecting cash in just one day, we finally did it. Friday comes and eric and I went to buy stuffs as early as 10am. The weather was as hot as fug. It didn't matter tho cos I really want everything to work out fine. I want this party to be awesome. We finally finish shopping for stuffs by 5pm. Rushed home to clean up and marinated the chicken wings and sausages. The rest are supposed to come by or before 7. Anyways, the birthday asswipe called me up and told me that he will be at my place in an hour time. How did I convinced him to come over without him knowing anything? I told em' Ive an emergency.

Well, the surprise party part didnt worked out. As in, Booney totally blew it off man.wtf. He came without informing me first. He even lied. He told me that he couldnt make it cos he was depressed or so. OMG, I felt like kickin' his ass off that moment. shitto....but guess what?? He totally lied and he totally knew somethin' was on. We were dumb founded, we didnt even had the time to lid the candles. OMG, my surprise party plans never failed before. For this, I totally hate you BOONEY. UR SUCH AN ASS. YOU HAD TO RUIN EVERYTHING. OUR HARDWORK WAS FOR NOTHING. *dramatic mode*

Anyways, I'm just kidding. You know altho ur such a retard, we still love you for who you are. haha.

This is dedicated to u...

We LOVE you butthead. Yong yoot. Ass. Whatever it is, you're always the Booney you are. :] Stay the same, don't ever change.